You´ll wake up only thinking of the book. It´ll be an Ice Age waiting a candle to flicker.
For a shining momente you´ll be a novelty and you can only be that once.
Your first feeling will be of disappointment. Getting beyond the hand-made photocopied things turns out to be no big deal.
From that moment the concept of "book" will hold no value and you will often buy expensively bound books and think nothing of cutting them up. If an idiot like you can be published, there can't be any inherent authority in the form.
But hardly anybody ever looking at it will think of the sum of experiences that will crowd around it, your "first book".
Alec MacGarry (que é mais ou menos a mesma coisa que
Eddie Campbell) em
Alec: How to be an Artist.